Why I Left Christian Science.
by Carolyn Poole
Christian Science was my whole life. I was a third-generation member of both a
local church and the Mother Church in Boston. As well, I was "class taught" -- that
is, I received special advanced instruction. I wholeheartedly practiced Christian
Science by reading my lesson every day, by not going to doctors or taking
medicine when I was sick, and by serving on various committees. I even served as
president of the Executive Board.
During this time, I did not know my religion was a cult, or that it was not
considered Christian. I was convinced Christian Science had the truth -- that God is
Infinite Mind and all is mental. I believed that Jesus was simply a human being who
demonstrated the "Christ Truth," just as you and I can when we become as
spiritually advanced as He was. Jesus was not so unique, I thought; He was simply
In 1969 I went (alone) to hear Billy Graham preach in the Anaheim Stadium in
California. I was curious about him because he was so famous. I don't know why I
did it, but at the end of the service I went forward and received prayer.
After I sat back down, an evil presence came to me. It told me I would be dead
before the night was over. I nearly panicked. I asked God to forgive me for my
being there and for my disloyalty to Christian Science. The evil thing left me, and I
blamed it all on Billy Graham. After that, I forgot the whole affair.
Since my religion was supposed to be based on the Bible, I tried to read the Bible
and understand it, but I found much of it too difficult. Then, in 1975, it occurred to
me to form a Bible study group using Christian Science materials. I proposed this to
my church, but nothing came of it.
By this time I was old enough to be a grandmother, yet I had never been invited to
a Bible study. So I was pleasantly surprised when two women, whom I did not
know, knocked on my door one day and invited me to a home Bible study with the
Christian Women's Club. I later learned that God had prompted these two women
(separately) to go door-to-door in my neighborhood. I was the only one to accept
After many months of study, I started seeing verses in my Bible that I had read
and yet had never really been aware of. My conception of God and His plan for
man started to change. It began to dawn on me that Mrs. Mary Baker Eddy, the
founder and leader of Christian Science, had taken the place of Jesus for those
involved in her religion.
In the Christian Science Church Manual, Mrs. Eddy had said she was the only one
to be called Leader. In Matthew 23:10 (NAS), however, Jesus said He was the
only one to be called Leader. I was faced with two different individuals -- both
claiming to be my only leader.
I had been taught that Christian Science was the "Revelation," that Mrs. Eddy was
the "Revelator," and that we cannot know the Revelation unless we know the
Revelator. And, of course, we have to know the Revelation in order to know God.
What this ultimately meant was that the only way we could know God was by
going through Mrs. Eddy.
Contrary to this, I saw in my Bible study that Jesus said "I am the way and the
truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me" (John
14:6). So, Mrs. Eddy and Jesus both claimed to be the way to God.
One day during our home study, we came to Matthew 16:15 where Jesus asked
His disciples who they said He was. The disciples answered, "Some say John the
Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, Jeremiah or one of the prophets." But
Jesus asked, "Who do you say I am?" Peter answered, "You are the Christ, the
Son of the living God" (v. 16). Jesus responded, "This was not revealed to you by
man, but by my Father in heaven" (v. 17).
After the women in the home Bible study left, those words kept ringing in my mind.
It was as though Jesus was asking me personally, "Who do you say I am?" He
seemed very stern about it. Poring over Mrs. Eddy's statements, it became clear
that she denied that Jesus is Christ (see, for example, her book entitled
Miscellaneous Writings, p. 84). But Jesus said He is Christ. Jesus was asking me
in my heart, Do you believe her or Me?
At first, I didn't know. I cried. I threshed it about in my mind. I came to the decision
that if Jesus could do the miracles He did, He certainly should know who He is. I
concluded that Jesus must be the Christ.
The Holy Spirit also revealed to me through Scripture that Jesus, far from being
just a man (as Christian Science teaches), is, in the Incarnation, God in human
flesh. John's gospel proclaims, "In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was
with God, and the Word was God....[and] The Word became flesh and made his
dwelling among us" (John 1:1, 14). In the Incarnation, Jesus was perfect humanity
and perfect deity.
After Jesus was crucified for our sins and gloriously resurrected from the dead,
"doubting" Thomas put his hand in Jesus' side and called Him, "My Lord and my
God" (John 20:28). If Thomas had been wrong in his assessment of Jesus' true
identity, Jesus certainly would have corrected him. Thus, through my Bible study, I
had learned that Jesus is the Christ, and that He is God -- something that is denied
by Mrs. Eddy.
Another issue I had to grapple with is the Christian Science teaching that man is
perfect and sinless. When a person dies, Christian Science teaches, only his belief of
matter dies. Man is spiritual, and at "death" he goes on doing whatever he was
doing, for death is simply an illusion. Moreover, since all is "mind," hell and heaven
are only states of mind.
The Bible, however, repeatedly affirms that all men are sinners. They cannot come
to God without a blood atonement. And, according to Scripture, Jesus -- the Lamb
of God -- became the perfect and final blood sacrifice for the atonement of man's
sins (Matt. 20:28).
If man is sinless, like Mrs. Eddy taught, then Jesus suffered on the cross for
nothing. In fact, it would appear as if Jesus was too stupid to know why He died. I
read in my Bible, however, that when Jesus was eating with the disciples, He took
a cup and handed it to them and said, "Drink from it, all of you. This is my blood of
the covenant, which is poured out for many for the forgiveness of sins" (Matt.
26:28). I cannot believe that Jesus was either stupid or a liar. He knew what He
was saying and He meant it.
I also read in Hebrews 9:27 that "it is appointed unto men once to die, but after
this the judgment." So death is real, and sinful men will one day appear before God
at the judgment seat and be judged for sins and cast into eternal damnation (hell)
-- unless they trust in Jesus for the forgiveness of sins (Acts 16:31).
I hated the thought of anyone going to hell. As a Christian Scientist, I didn't think it
could possibly be true. But as disturbing as I felt it was, I now realized that Jesus
Himself had taught it. I also realized that if it were true, it would be even more
disturbing if Jesus didn't warn people about eternal damnation. Though I had had
trouble believing that a good God could allow such a condition to exist, I also
realized that I didn't make the rules and God didn't ask me my opinion. As God said
in Isaiah, "My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways"
I came to see more and more clearly that Christian Science flatly contradicted what
Jesus said about the state of our existence after we pass on from this life. Up until
now, I had always read past Jesus' words about hell, thinking that He was speaking
in a parable, and that Mrs. Eddy's spiritual interpretation explained it all. It suddenly
occurred to me, as chills ran up and down my spine, that maybe the Bible actually
meant what it said.
From a human viewpoint, some of Mrs. Eddy's ideas may sound appealing (e.g.,
there is no sin, no death, no judgment day, and no hell). But a study of
Scripture shows that her teachings are permeated with error. The more I studied,
the more I found this to be true.
I had been believing in Mrs. Eddy to guide me for my eternal life, and I came to see
that she didn't know any more (really) than I did. She was only another mortal.
Moreover, when she died, her body stayed in the grave. She didn't come back.
Therefore, she can't really testify as to what goes on after death because she had
never been there when